THE PERSISTENCE OF MELANCHOLY


On a balmy summer day — May 8th, 2010 to be exact — I waited in front of a dorm on the second floor of the Bayou Apartments. I was waiting to turn in my key, which meant I was officially moving out of my last college dorm. "So much happened in that room!" I mused, in denial of the fact the transition out of college life had commenced, and I was still feeling attached to college. Through the rails I could see my grandfather, my parents, my sister and her husband waiting for me at the parking lot. I was glowing with pride because I had just graduated the night before. All was as I dreamed it would be!
Then my RA arrived. We went back to inspect the room, then handed out my keys and signed out. She hit me with a very polite valediction. "Have a nice life!" At first it didn't sink in, but she had just said good-bye to me for life! My thoughts went from "Huh?" to "Oh, right" in seconds, and then the shock started washing over. I felt at a loss for words — and a little bit like a walking corpse — but here is what I deducted: Sometimes you just have to let go. This includes letting go of people as much as it includes letting go of life cycles. Getting attached generates resistance, which generates pain. Some people you meet are nothing short of wonderful, such as my RA. It's sad that they remain in your life from a few years to just an instant. Somehow, you never forget them. It doesn't matter if you know them for an entire life span or a few hours, something about parting ways is bittersweet. People come and go, we are our only constant.



Constance is a curious stage that fluctuates almost as much as its own permanence. In college especially, you meet a lot of talented individuals that spread around the globe as soon as graduation comes. Here one moment, gone the next! I like to tell/show these people my appreciation, because whether they know it or not, many of them have made lasting contributions to my life.

Take for example the lovely clairvoyant tarot reader, Marcella Kroll. We met in Venice, California at an esoteric store called Mystic Journey. Marcella is one of those people that brighten up a room when they enter; I felt an instant click with her. The conversation that ensued was wonderful, too! Personally, I knew her for about an hour and a half, but she made an impressive contribution to my life path with her gift. We still keep in touch today through the internet, and I don't know where I would be if not for her golden advice! To read more about Marcella, please click here.



The same can be said for Almond, a wonderful German that I met during my first adventure in Japan. He was so charming, yet only physically present in my life for two and a half days! We delighted in each others company for walks around the city, café conversations at the Black Cat Café in Harajuku, and sushi feasts. I'll never forget that feeling that suggested I had actually known him for years. We had a wonderful time together, and parted ways all too soon. While constancy presents itself as a problem for travelers, it can also be seen as a great opportunity for cultural enrichment and intellectual stimuli. So much change is also very humbling in a way!

"SEE YOU IN ANOTHER LIFE, BROTHER!" — JOEL ROSSELLÓ
The romantic way in which I view this situation through the world of metaphysics is that karmic bonds and threads of fate bring us together one last time. It doesn't matter if it's just to help us bask in each others company; there is importance in showing gratitude for having them around, even if just for a little while. Enjoy people while they are in your life. Learn from them, hear their stories and actually make time to get to know them at a personal level. When we live our lives too fast, we forget to stop and focus on the little details that make life sweet. Later on, you will be feeding off the glimmer of light left over from those cherished memories!
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