Hello, it's me again. What a year it has been. What a surprise my life has turned out to be.

At the time I wrote my last Annual Review I had no clue what was about to happen next. I had just started getting the feeling back after being numb for so long, and what transpired after was fast-paced. I can compare it to being launched out of a cannon without a helmet. I turned up the volume and lived as intensely as I could for about seven months. It changed how I felt about most aspects of my life. When you experience something like this, you’ll allow yourself new adventure and experiences, all the while being more flexible about what you usually don’t do. It got really wild! After getting everything out of my system I started to seek a direction to go in and decided to start planning my life out more seriously. That's when I really started to settle into the kind of person that I am now, but it took time to reach.

I sit here writing this entry a changed person. During the past twelve months of my life I have focused on looking inward and finding out who I have become based off all the experiences I’ve had in the past few years. I ran for a long time without pausing to consider the consequences of how all the hard stuff I had experienced would nest inside of me and start developing new behaviors. Once I started identifying them in numbers, I started to understand there was more going on beneath the surface than I had knowledge of. I began to traverse the neural pathways of consciousness and of my nervous system. I started being more mindful of signs my mind and body gave me, and I started looking for ways to unravel the tense knot that had been created in the years prior. Its been a persistent knot, to say the least.

Some of the changes just make me a more functional adult in today’s society, but the ones I am focused on are the kind that help me nourish my relationships with the people I love and with myself. I started back up with what we call alternative medicine or Native American ceremony, and that has been great. I go into it with an open mind and heart, and although the process is stressful I always come out of it feeling good about it. I have also further invested effort into setting myself straight by going to therapy. Took the plunge early in the summer and kept copious notes on the subjects discussed. I’m still going to therapy now, and I have found I love the dynamic. I found a really great psychologist who has helped me navigate my inner demons and currently helps guide me to get my life straight.

Even more unexpected still, I fell in love. Like, really fell in love. Tried to turn my life around fell in love. Stopped looking for reasons to run away fell in love. Sat through feelings I regularly wouldn't fell in love. I met a man who wasn’t afraid of the overgrown hedges, or of how jaded I had turned out to be. Maybe he's somewhat more afraid now, though. [Nervous laugh.]

Even more amazing to me still is my most recent achievement of having completed my first sketchbook since I graduated from college. This has been something I have been struggling with for a very long time. I've had the joy of finishing paper cut out greeting cards as well. Being able to finish something I start, sitting back and admiring it has borne rewards. It gives me hope that the future can include more finished pieces if only I can stay committed to making up for lost time. It's as simple as drawing every day, but often takes more motivation than I've got.

Without further ado, it’s time to read some cards.

♡ October. Temperance.
Going through all aspects of your life and working on them. Contemplating your shortcomings and your greatest achievements and trying to find out a better balance so that the path is clear and smooth in the future. Even if fun is intense and high tone, responsibilities could be sacrificed. It takes a great deal of discipline to learn to plan ahead instead of skipping around impulsively. When you care, you take the time to craft matters out in a way that speaks to harmony and happiness, life’s real balance.

Maturing has a way of taking he rose-colored glasses off and making reality feel more tolerable. It takes a great deal of responsibility but the payoff is definitely worth it.

♡ November. Three of Swords.
Some lessons are learned the hard way. This may be about getting a rough set of news that is heartbreaking or witnessing somebody act out on how hurt they are. It is the opposite of the previous month, which is tempering one’s emotions. This card shows an expression of pain, even if it accepted with grace. Something difficult could happen, and the best we can do sometimes is to be accepting of it if we can’t change it.

Not gonna' lie, seeing this card present this month fills me with dread. It almost feels like a looming specter waiting just a few weeks up ahead. I'm not ready.

December. Page of Cups.
A soothing balm, an apology received. Circumstances soothe and cool you down. Shed some tears if you have to, but come back to reasoning with the understanding that you are doing the best you can anyway. That is really what you can offer.

I see this as an offer of love, some type of gift or upgrade. It could be finally learning to say sorry on your own without the people you care about having to ask it of you. Going back to the basics and loving without the defense mechanisms you have used to protect yourself in place.

January. Hierophant.
Life lessons come with a bitter drink sometimes. But once we know better we have no reason to go back to repeat past mistakes. The best way to see some obstacles through is to stick to convention and to be cooperative. There will be other times to stand up for yourself and thus stand out in a situation, but this is not one of those instances. For now, see which reward you reap from obedience and devotion. Don’t question it, just go with it.

I’ve had this card following me for the past few months and wonder how it will finally come to play out. At the moment I can foresee different aspects of the lesson but not yet the bigger picture.

February. Ace of Wands.
Passion, the kind that burns. A match is lit in the dark to provide you with insight on what you can invest your energy in. What is it, a creative project or your relationship turning up the volume? Is it your temper flaring up?

After all the moderation and stress of the past months, it seems like this is really when the year gets going. A jump start is great even if it feels like a late one. I know all my years to start out in February because I tend to spend January tying up loose ends from the previous year. It happens naturally.

March. Ace of Cups.
A sign of relief to soothe and cool you off, like memories of Moroccan mint tea freshly brewed in the early mornings while the crisp African breeze delights you. These are the memories to think back to that lighten the spirit and give your body a general feeling of wellness. Prioritize that, prioritize feeling good and grounded in the moment. Practice gratitude without it getting self-serving. Accept life’s best blessings with an open heart. Be ready to give. It’s a reward you gift yourself with.

Romance can overwhelm you, sometimes you shed tears from joy knowing you’ve been through so much. Still, you’ve somehow made it. You’ve found your niche. Now that it feels this way it can be hard to believe you achieved it. Here you are, pat yourself on the back. Drink and be merry.

April. Eight of Swords.
I don’t think this is a versatile month rich in options. It actually seems a little tense. You may have concerns that keep you locked in place. Take some time to rest if that’s the case. Not all months can be winners. We don’t need to resist our circumstances.

May. The Sun.
Back on shedding light. Smiling, looking forward to that dreadful season called the summer. Last one was terrific, I don’t remember having enjoyed myself so much during the summer. This one starts off with heat waves and an abundance of coconut water no doubt. Eat clean and get out there, live out your best life!

Free of those two year woes. I narrowly escaped, but did so at the perfect time. I give thanks I got out of those sinking trenches every day.

June. Six of Swords.
There’s no going back once you’re past the point of no return. The journey brings with it many obstacles as well as surprises. Once you learn to prioritize the important aspects and leave distractions second you start to see the pace picking up because you focus better. Still, you know that you can’t control everything about your circumstances. There will be curve balls coming at you, but the best part is being prepared to handle them so they don’t slow you down too much.

You learn as you go, so go with an open heart. Disperse the fear, it won’t serve you.

July. Two of Coins.
Learning to make compromise takes work. So does negotiation to make up for something so you can keep moving forward. The meshing of two worlds obscures boundaries defining each party. It all gets drawn in, such as planets do as they drift into black holes. The solid, defined form you have known yourself to have starts to change to be able to fit with that of somebody else’s world. It stops being about just you as people and starts to become the summation of those two worlds mixing.

August. Three of Coins.
Working together, keeping busy. A possibly hectic time of productivity. It seems like many of the things talked about being worked on are finally well underway. The key is to keep that momentum going while also juggling all the responsibilities of real life. Therein lies the real puzzle.

September. Judgment.
Growth can come with the most crippling growing pains, don’t I know it. Overcoming all your obstacles seems doable, but overcoming yourself is really the most magnanimous task. It takes lots of careful planning and consistency at chipping away all the extra weight. All the spikes being shed, so to speak. Maturing comes with eye-opening experiences, and can often make you feel transparent before others.

Theme. The Moon.
In all the years I've been doing this reading I haven't actually had my signifier pop up as the theme for the year. When The Moon pops up in a personal reading, I intuit it to be overwhelming anxiety or confusion as well as intuition without harness. Notice the distorted face, eyes closed and the beams that radiate down from the moon itself. It's a feeling of intoxication that can be overwhelming until it passes, just as the full moon. I never get any sleep during a full moon.

I interpret this to be working with shadow aspects or those aspects of ourselves that are less glamorous or not easy to accept. Even though I don't subscribe to the notion that we are all works in progress until we leave this Earth, I do think that this directly relates to how I feel on the inside and how overwhelmed I feel by it sometimes. I have become more conscious of my shortcomings and aspects of myself that need to be worked on. Let's hope it gets resolved in the next year from how much effort I have invested in that task.

What are you working on? Tempering your emotions or following your intuition despite its dissonance with your environment?

After writing a soul-baring entry like this I have been left feeling contemplative. It's hard to be vulnerable with other people, but lately also especially difficult to do online. Everyone gets a plain sight view into the aspects of your life you shine a light on, and my life has been on the Internet for 8 years now consistently. This blog has documented the growing pains and highlights of past lives. Here I have documented my ups and downs and pressed my favorite pictures of some of the best moments I've had.

Every day we wake up is a day we are further from past selves and discarded memories. None of it sticks. It's so important to make the best of what you have in the present moment. I think this will be the lesson I will be taking with me into my '30s. Next month I am to be shedding my early adulthood numbers and entering the next decade of my life.

The reaper's scythe showed no remorse when I was releasing my old life. It cut everything and everyone out. Those I held precious and those I didn't care for. I still miss some of those people, but have fortunately accepted circumstances. Here's to hoping for a better decade coming up, it'll only be as good as I allow it to be.

With hesitance I commence a new chapter of my life, and with it come new lessons no doubt.


Paulina Cassidy is the visionary artist behind the Paulina Tarot, Joie de Vivre Tarot and now Spiriting Tarot. She also put out the Witching Book of Spells, and the Faerie Guidance Oracle. Her style is sketchy with what seems to be watercolor washes. The worlds she paints balance between being dark and whimsical.

Paulina Cassidy’s previous artworks are very easy to get attached to and have become some of my primary working decks throughout my psychic career. I love working with them and I get great results. They just get it right.

The Spiriting Tarot draws upon shamanism and the belief of animals as totems. It is believed they lend their medicine, according to the ancients.

Despite you being able to trace this deck back to basic Rider-Waite Smith meanings, I don’t think this reads as an RWS deck. The archetypes the animals represent will either support or clash, and may even carry through as a narrative as well. If you use this deck you will have to learn to piece archetypes together and distinguish which energy comes from where. It will take an objective look into your life to understand why a concept ties into it and how. It may take some time to identify the differences and influences.

Some of the cards have a narrative style of evolution when you place them side by side. Lizards can turn into crocodiles. The evolution of our souls and personalities can be seen in a visual form of storytelling that I find compelling with this deck.

I saw as the moth’s wings grew and as it transformed into a tall dragonfly. A lizard grew in scale and turned into a crocodile. You can see how people change and what their attitude turns them into. After going through pain, the death’s head moth books it as a firefly would. The lizard grew fierce and impatient, not understanding the pain the moth was in. All the narrative symbolism is emphasizing the journey people undertake and I am really feeling it.

I think that this is a really excellent deck to use on the side of a tarot deck if you want a little more information. It could also work as an oracle. I am tempted to trim the cards and use them as totem animal cards. For now, I’ll just leave them as they are and learn to use the deck as it is meant to be used.

The illustrations are quite beautiful. I love the whimsical flourishes adorning the ecosystems the animals are found in It suggests being in a sacred presence, as no doubt the Native American folk would see them in their reverence. I like the idea of animal totems and their influence over a practice that is sacred for many of us. As a spiritual person I can tell you that this deck evokes that mindset, and when I read I will take the cultural beliefs into consideration.

These cards have medium thick card stock, they don't bend much. I find them stiff and sturdy. The cards are also larger than standard size.

What is your most important characteristic?
The Sun. Bringing clarity to us when we are slowed down in the murk of confusion.

Confusion can make otherwise happy days cloudy. If you don’t feel comfortable with where you are at in the present moment, try to make the best of it instead of focusing on everything that could go wrong and that is already going on in your day. There's always a silver lining.

What are your strengths as a tarot deck?
The Tower. This tarot aims to have you understand how much better you will feel when you let go of anything in your life you are resisting releasing. It can bring you clarity, or maybe go as far as to help you have epiphanies. It is possible to have moments of clarity in difficult times from which you walk out of seeing things differently.

Learn to adapt to your surroundings, even as they are changing.

What are your limits?
Five of Wands.
Identifying when to speak up when facing a difficult challenge. Obstacles like these help us learn and grow. We have to stay conscious of our motives and where we want to take circumstances, from the very beginning to the outcome. Being conscious of what you want out of an interaction when you are in it can make the difference between things going south or being able to resolve a conflict.

What are you here to teach me?
Knight of Coins. When we're on a journey we may have expectations of how soon we want to achieve our goals or how soon we want to conclude a circumstance we are living through. Many times we will be able to remain in control, but there will me times where what we want is not in our pool of possibilities. We'll just have to wait.

In these moments, having a positive attitude helps to hold us over while we keep moving forward. We need to learn to trust that we will get there eventually. We can continue our optimism by making every step count.

How can I best learn to collaborate with you?
Five of Coins. Showing your best face in times of adversity. Whenever something doesn't go your way, pause to consider that it's just this one instance. It doesn't mean that you are doomed to fail every time. Let it serve as a motivator to push yourself harder to attain your goal the next time around.

What is the potential outcome of our working relationship?
King of Coins. After a bit of toiling around and facing frustration you'll eventually start to feel more self-confident and comfortable tackling life's obstacles. Experience is a great teacher. Feeling better about yourself or the attitude with which you approach new problems. Building self-assurance can only be good for you.

Which card do you want to show off?
The Star. Whenever we face hard times we lose scope of the whole picture. The tendency is generally to focus mostly on the problem that is bothering us, through which time many other positive aspects of our days may be overlooked. Pause to get back out of your head, breathe. Look around. What's happening around you? Where are you really once you step outside of your head?

How do you see me?
The Wheel. Ever-changing, going around like the seasons. You have just about as many phases as the moon. The depths of mystery, too. Being a dreamer can make you a creative intuitive as well as a neurotic, and you lend yourself to chaos when you resist the general flow your life tries to sway you in. Your stubbornness earns you pain, but more often than not you brave it because you're not afraid of going against the current.

How do you see yourself?
Four of Coins. A young spirit that is sensitive and intuitive. A builder, the type that encourages others to form groups to thrive in.

Fun fact: When I did my first spirit animal meditation it was in 12th grade. The animal that came up to me was an otter. We all have our idea of the perfect pair to strive for and thrive with. Stick to what you're good at and you will come to find all that time you spent observing others will pay right off.

This is an interesting deck to read with. I really like the way the animals were stylized, and the feel they bring to a reading when they are pulled out.


Let’s keep rolling with great decks to use in the summer. Despite my dedicated use of the Victorian Romantic in winter times, I’m really feeling these new card backs. I feel like it is another great deck to pull out as the summer rages on. The deck is based on original engravings from 19th century artists, and those images have been collaged and repurposed to narrate the Rider-Waite Smith tradition. Using it is much like enjoying the cool breeze on a particularly sunny day. You can apply RWS or freely read what is on the table before you.

When the Victorian Romantic Tarot first came out it was a huge hit. It was voted #1 in the Aeclectic Tarot community forums several years in a row.

Karen Mahony and Alex Ukolov of the Baba Studio worked on what would be formally the third edition of their Victorian Romantic Tarot deck. You’d think they’d have settled for it being perfect already; they have a somewhat cult following of readers that are passionate about the art. Some readers went as far as to collect all of the available versions of the deck. I am one of them.

The second incarnation of this deck was absolutely stunning with metallic gold edges and blue-green brocade backs. I fell in love with it when I saw its new royal blue backs contrasted with alabaster whimsy. It’s stunning! And the card illustrations were much improved.

I am so impressed with this deck. I looooove how the details come to life thanks to the metallic overlay. The color on the cards turn to jewel tones when the sun goes down and you light a candle. I thoroughly recommend you try this to get the most enjoyment out of your cards. It can make the colors really pop and the act of reading your cards feel more special.

The changes made to the deck are the kind we can unanimously agree benefit it. The card backs are now royal blue with white whimsical flourishes outlined in gold. Emblazoned with the abbreviation of its name in the center of the card backs. The backs are fully reversible, so you won’t be able to tell which one is in the reverse. They fan out fine and the card stock is thin but sturdy. It’s somewhat buttery matte card stock that feels like skin. It’s my favorite kind of card stock; I find it lasts the longest.

Enjoy some time poring over the cards in gentle candlelight, allowing the Victorians to whisper prophecy and advice. Delight in a deck that all the professionals in the field of divination love madly and swear by. Get lost in scenes of clear and tempestuous weather, and look at the narrative qualities the weather can suggest. It offers an illustrative aspect of the deck for me that points out to how clear or how heavy the feelings of the people involved are. Its great for figuring out somebody’s current state of feeling or mindset. Try it and tell me how it works for you.

Get to know the characters whose personalities and state of feeling become clear due to body language and facial expression.

What is your most important characteristic?
Justice. Fairness. Don't expect to be tipped to extremes or rash decisions. Work with this deck when you have time to sit down and contemplate the options you are presented with and how to apply them to your life. Come prepared with clarity of mind to do some of the real work. No bs, no added color.

What are your strengths as a tarot deck?
The Lovers. One of the strengths in this deck is that it points out when you are being idealistic and viewing life through rose-colored glasses. If the situation you find yourself in is one-sided, you will soon know. Anything lackluster or any dissatisfaction gets highlighted with grace. In other words, prepare to swallow the bitter drink you’ve been running from.

What are your limits?
Strength. The question got echoed by a card that can signify restraint or self control. The deck can be gentle but forceful in its delivery of messages. If you’re not ready for the truth, perhaps think it over before you ask. This deck won’t be sugarcoating the situation for you.

What are you here to teach me?
Three of Swords. This deck can teach us how to handle grief when hurting over someone or something we love. I would identify is as the faithful companion at his owner’s heel. A hand that lands on your shoulder when you most need warmth. Your reality will remain the way it is and it will still be harsh, but you’ll have a balm of support until the pain dissipates. Grit your teeth and keep going. It gets better eventually.

I’m impressed at how often the Three of Swords has popped up as the answer for this question throughout all the years I have been reviewing card decks.

How can I best learn to collaborate with you?
Six of Swords. You can best learn to connect the use of this deck and your life by being less attached to the outcome. Be mindful of the process in this journey you are on. Letting go of circumstances that don’t benefit you can be harmful, but you waste less time and effort if you are conscious of them. In this life what we are most guaranteed is change, and this card beautifully illustrates the transience we feel when we are at a turning point or in the midst of a big, previously unforeseen change.

Accepting that life will continue to push forward and change is part of the equation and something we need to accept seeing as we can’t always influence it or the direction we turn to.

What is the potential outcome of our working relationship?
Eight of Wands. You’ll be in for an exciting time. Sometimes your options will be right within your grasp, other times you will realize you have rushed head first into falling passionately for somebody. Eventually your circumstances slow down and you’ll have more time to consider what is in front of you.

As you gain confidence you will pick up your pace, and in the process you may find the thrill energizing. Move forward in your life with assertion.

Which card do you want to show off?
Six of Coins. Something that helps you plenty is to accept reality as is, as the two sixes present in the reading imply.

Even if the guise is glamorous, expect humbling and grounding readings. You won’t be sugarcoating and adorning reality, but faced with the more gruesome aspects of it.

How do you see me?
The Star. Vulnerable, at times naive and idealistic. Well intended and delicate in feelings. In search of better times and new chapters. Expressing your feelings freely, and exploring new experiences with coy zest. Still healing, although slowly.

How do you see yourself?
Ten of Swords. As a source of support in times of despair, defeat and emotional exhaustion.

A bit of a brisk reading, but what else could you expect from the Victorians?

If you'd like to see more of their work, check out my review of the Alice Tarot. Thanks for reading!


This summer has been for Pokémon Go, more sunshine than I am used to absorbing with my skin, happy buzzing with my lover, dancing, Synthwave, palm trees, massive heat, and lots of tarot readings. With the trees in full color and the sun burning down our necks, but a great time to be had anyway.

Today I want to talk about a deck I pre-ordered earlier in the spring. It is called Tarotwave, made by Kenna Calabro. It was inspired by glitch, space art and Vaporwave.

I think the most attention-calling aspect of this deck is its festive card backs. We have a holo sheen, scan lines, palm trees and sunset skies. Go down the rabbit hole into a fantasy world dominated by pink, purple and minty hues. A real delight for any Synthwave and Vaporware fan. I love the neon, scan lined collages reinterpreting the tools I have used and loved for 19 years of my life. They completely freshen up how I read and break me out of my comfort zone.

I was surprised with the card stock used for Tarotwave. It's thick matte cardstock, fans out easily enough, but if you'd like an extra slip I'd recommend using some fanning powder. I might just to help with the shuffling and breaking them in. The cards are standard size and they come with a lovely two part box that is sturdy enough to keep them in permanently. I thought the box was rather stunning!

Even though human presence is minimal in the deck, it really doesn’t affect how this deck reads. If anything it mixes the traditional RWS scenes with pips in just the right amount. When I was reading with it, I found this didn't upset the balance of my readings as it has in the past with decks excluding live human figures. All this does is encourage you to tune into your intuition to deliver a different reading every time. This deck is full of feel good vibes which you will find will make you smile. I find this deck to be both easy to read with and non-intimidating to people who aren’t quite comfortable with the tarot. All I can foresee is delight over how beautiful the cards are.

The fantastical aspects to Tarotwave are quite stellar. I could easily see myself navigating through a fictional cyberspace in which these elements all come to life and interact with one another. If you are a writer and you want to break out of a writing funk, this deck is certainly for you. Just let your imagination run as you dream up a crazy cyberpunk alternate reality, somewhere in a world no one could even fathom how to arrive at without a secret pass code or a hidden key.

Tech and Tumblr witches love this deck already. I could see the cards being worked into amulets for iPhone and iPad screens, discrete enough not to be noticed by people who are not in the practice of the craft. It's so useful for this! As if we needed another reason to purchase this deck...

If nothing else, these are 78 exceptional art pieces to delight your day in an affirmative way with their retro tones. I got very positive vibes from the deck as I was reading with it, and the fact it doesn't have any really scary scenes makes it less intimidating for people who are reluctant to seek readings.

This deck arrived in the perfect time to enjoy it. With its vivid colors I feel like it is a deck I will reach out to use every summer especially. It can really be enjoyed all year round if you like. It’s just so full of life, I'm delighted pairing this deck with the current season. Sit out in the garden, have your pet with you, sip on something cool as you fan our 78 steps for where your next day will go.

What is your most important characteristic?
Death. I can get you to accept radical changes that you have no control over. Where letting go starts out as an obstacle for most, in your experience with this deck you will come to realize why letting go is important. Sometimes we take our problems too seriously and then later come to see it’s all in our heads.

Stop living inside your head. Get out there and live to see yourself achieve you full potential. Don’t hold yourself back.

What are your strengths as a tarot deck?
Six of Cups. I’ll give you a thorough understanding of events from your past that used to confuse you. You can look in hindsight with more clarity to reach acceptance of reality, or aspects of it you might be in conflict with. A reality check to keep you from viewing reality through rose-colored glasses, if you will.

What are your limits?
Temperance. Some events require patience for time to pass before we can have our turn to influence our circumstances. Despite our intentions we cannot always be behind the wheel or somehow in control of the next direction we are going in. Controlling impulses is a challenge in self-mastery, and it is something that is also accomplished over time. We need to learn to work with what we have until more is made available to us. With that said, keep this in mind and you will suffer less.

What are you here to teach me?
Nine of Cups. It is possible to be happy even if not everything turns out the way you wanted it to. Part of what frees us of our constraints is when we accept reality for what it is, without being bothered by the things we have no control over. It feels like true happiness is achieved when we find ourselves grounded in present time, appreciating the little gestures that give our life light and color.

There is so much to enjoy right in front of us, and we can lose the perspective easily when we focus on that one small thing we don’t have. In hindsight, the things we want won’t necessarily present a radical change in our lives. Once we sate our thirst for something we’ve been in search of, something new becomes the object of our desire. Be happy with what you’ve got in the moment and you’ll be free of the stress of not having.

How can I best learn to collaborate with you?
Three of Wands. Use these cards to identify steps in your journey. These steps are opportunities for turning points or trying new things. Find the highlighted alternative routes and you will then find the options are numerous. We spend a lot of time waiting on and actively seeking to act to make our dreams come true.

What is the potential outcome of our working relationship?
Justice. Finding a balance for our lives is a tricky task to undertake. It can take numerous attempts until we find the way to achieve progress. Each new boundary surpassed is an achievement and should keep us motivated. By being mindful of where we want to go, we shape a clearer path for ourselves. It makes navigating through life easier, and difficult choices manageable to make.

Which card do you want to show off?
Three of Coins. This card shows off some computer monitors and an outrun style city scape.

We are in the midst of a hive. There are countless lives coexisting all around one another, working towards the accomplishment of their own goals. Chasing our own dreams can take up a lot of time and energy, but that’s what we are all in the quest of. There is an underlying current beneath it all. As we concentrate, the silence we leave in the environment around us speaks for itself. As we are occupied working on what matters to us, all the problems that distract us from our best selves melt away. This is a key moment, where we take the present time and claim it for our own, working on something that matters to us and validates our existence.

How do you see me?
Three of Cups. Full of life, thriving when connecting with others. Despite how draining social interactions can be for introverts, you bask in the love of your close circle of friends and loved ones. They are your pillars, keeping you sane in times of stress and celebrating with you when you’re enjoying the pleasures life has to offer. A smile is contagious, and so is genuine laughter.

How do you see yourself?
Page of Coins. Brand new to the world, published recently. This deck offers a refreshing look into the world of tarot. If you let it sway you along, you could find yourself breaking free of traditional meanings and into new grounds. You surprise yourself when you allow yourself to be led by the clues. Using this deck with others can set a safe environment in which they can open up to you and not feel intimidated by the cards that fall on the table.

This deck arrived with a “wish you were here…” postcard. The finishing touch for a kiss of summer, wouldn’t you think?

I am very surprised with the results I got when reading with this deck. Definitely give it a try, you won’t be disappointed.

There you have it. Hope you're enjoying the summer!


Experience has proven to be the best teacher. That which you refuse to learn time and time again will count as resistance, which generates pain. All resistance does is keep you in the loop, a cycle which becomes increasingly difficult to break out of.

One of the wisest lessons life has taught me in the last ten years of my life has been that you can't control what other people do or think. Often times you also have no influence over their actions. As frustrating as it can be, you can explain yourself multiple times over from different angels in attempt to connect and get on the same wavelength. Those who simply don't wish to see your point of view won't even budge, and that's just the way life is. Insisting makes the situation tense or awkward, and people close their windows of attention. After they've been saturated, they are no longer listening. The person explaining is expending time and energy unwisely. It is wasted.

Throughout my 20s I always felt I knew best. I psychoanalyzed all the people in my life and felt the responsibility to point them in the direction of what I understood was the best version of what they could be. Later on I found out what they wanted in reality was different from my well-intended carved out path. Then I finally came to the realization it isn't my responsibility to help or save people in my personal life. This just happens to be what I dedicated myself to for a living, but it doesn't need to translate over into my off time from work. That has helped me stop wasting my energy and time. I also came to accept I wasn't always right.

Last Wednesday when I met up with my mentor La Gitana Patricia, she grinned at me and asked me if I'm still trying to save people that often just end up being unnecessary weight on my shoulders. She told me that the down side to being a psychic seer is understanding others because it often leads to disappointment. You know they can do better and get frustrated when they end up not investing effort into working things out in a manner that fulfills your standards of the potential you see in them.

Time and experience teach you that you don't necessarily know best, you just find a possible outcome for which there are many others in the pile.

Experience has taught me that it isn't my responsibility to try influence others, no matter how well intended the impulse might be. Knowing this has saved me some frustration and has instead helped me circumvent back to what really matters: to prioritize myself. To prioritize my own growth.

I've consciously been putting a lot of work into my psyche for the past six or seven months. It has paid off plenty, despite there still being much work to do. But it has made the biggest difference in my moods. Every day I walk this new path I shape myself to be able to live a peaceful and more productive life. It sucks to take a good look at yourself and to see yourself as a broken down fairground, but now that I've been at it a while I feel much better. I did the work. I've let go of some bad habits and been focused instead on improving as a person. Even though I'm not quite there yet I am still grateful to have the opportunity to progress. For a while there I kept overriding the same behaviors and going nowhere with them.

This year I turn 30. Months after the end of my Saturn Return I am now thinking about the chapter coming up ahead. The next decade won't feel any different but will be symbolic for a new stage in my life. The purpose of the Saturn Return is to clear the slate for that next chapter. Well, here I stand pretty much naked. The Saturn Return aggressively cleared everything and everyone out of my life. I removed and also caused people to leave my life. From here, there is really no way to go but forward. I think the biggest challenge has actually been to master my impulses, particularly the more passionate ones.

There is truth to the hypothesis that we are placed on this Earth to master ourselves.

I can feel my conscious efforts turning inwards, and it makes perfect sense. But I wouldn't have known this lesson had it been dangling before my eyes for years. Are things perfect now? Not by any stretch, but I am learning and that counts.

I have found I don't hold grudges forever; time makes letting go of grudges possible. While I wouldn't want to reintegrate the people who hurt me back into my life, I have walked away with a newfound understanding of how not to approach situations. Sometimes I still get scared of the notion that I won't have the ability to learn from my mistakes due to not being ready or not having absorbed a lesson properly, but I can't feed the storms that brew inside of me. They will engulf and consume me if I let them.

Time has this magic effect about it of sobering us up. Even though I can see my own flaws more clearly now I try not to mind them so much. What it is really about is learning and progressing. Change is something I have always been comfortable with, but now I see it more as a pacemaker. The challenge is not to be dragged by it.

I'm not the same person I used to be. Try as you might to box me back in, I don't fit inside that old box anymore. I've changed.