IN THE DAY OF YOUR SUN

The countdown to my 30th birthday passed slowly, and it also passed with what I felt were last-minute lessons. I felt it looming and edging closer all the while wondering if I had learned everything I needed to from my 20s. I didn't feel confident that I had, but I reasoned with myself and admitted life doesn't wait for you to be ready for it. It just happens to you, and the way you choose to keep reacting to it defines your reality.
I stand today will in rickety shape, like that of a broken down fairground. I've been having a tough time lately, and the more I try to fix it the worse it gets. I don't feel very confident about myself, so in many ways I feel like I am starting my 30s with a slate yet to wipe clean. I still have to clean all this rubble off. I learned the hard way and still feel like there are leftover loose ends to take care of. It all comes with the pressure of entering a new chapter in your life without the knowledge of how well you have prepared for the upcoming obstacles. My responsibilities and stressors keep piling up, and with the days passing I find I have less and less time for myself. Making time to draw is incredibly difficult when I am sapped of my motivation and dragging through a rough day.



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I had a pretty good day when I turned 30. I got up and tried to work a while, went to therapy and introduced my mother to my therapist. That session was eye-opening and brought me into perspective of what the people who have me in their lives feel. I went to have Japanese food for lunch at my favorite ramen place, Daikokuya, and enjoyed some sparkling sake and my mother's company. We kept the food tour going with Ladurée's Ispahan at The Grove. It's so good!
Later that day I passed by my boyfriend's house and saw him for a few minutes. Mom got to meet one of his sphynx cats, and she squealed in delight as she held the kitten. I was extremely moved by her enjoyment of the encounter and only wish I'd have given her more time with him. Then we went to dinner with my mother and enjoyed some Italian food. The wine was my favorite in LA.We went to see A Star is Born after dinner.

On the walk back I made sure to voice appreciation to my mother for dropping her life and meeting me in Los Angeles for a week to catch up. Her support during this time has been a soothing balm, and I can't help but feel choked up knowing she did it all selflessly and because she loves me. She is living an extremely busy life back home and knowing she was willing to set her responsibilities aside to be there for me have moved me very deeply. I'm going to miss her so much now that she's returned to the island.

I sat in my living room after the day was over and contemplated my life. If you asked me what I am the most invested in, it is hands down my relationship. I've gone all in and at times forgotten myself. I feel so intensely for my boyfriend, and I hope he carries this knowledge with him as he carries my key in his pocket. 🗝️🗝️







The next day my friends came to see me at Cloak & Dagger. I was gifted a table (thank you, Michael Patterson!) and got to enjoy the club that has been my sanctuary for the past couple of years.The music was exceptionally good that night with Brian T and Baby Magick spinning. My friends lit up hearing remixes they listened to and loved. None of the people I invited really knew each other but to my delight they all got along really well and said they had a nice time. All that was missing was my boyfriend beside me.

I still can't believe I made it to 30. Although I am not feeling at my best lately, I want to express gratitude for the unconditional love my mother has been giving me. I want to express gratitude for my boyfriend Chris, who I love immensely and couldn't see a happy life without. My friends have all voiced their support and have offered to be there if I need them. I'm so grateful to everybody who has stuck beside me and motivated me to keep going.

The days ahead are looking to be lonely ones. I'm not looking forward to buckling down and concentrating on all the work I have to catch up on, but all good things come to an end. Now all I've got to do is focus and get back to some really serious adulting.

The 8th anniversary of this blog is rapidly approaching on the 31st of October. It's incredible how long this project has been going on for. It has kept its integrity as a life chronicle and as a resource for all those looking to add to their tarot collections. It has documented my growth across what I affectionately like to call my past lives and has brought me many wonderful contacts & clients. So thank you, all my readers from the recent ones to the ones that have been around since this blog launched. Samhain Moon wouldn't still be here if it wasn't for those of you reaching out to tell me you enjoy my reviews or life anecdotes. I wouldn't still be doing this if I didn't feel like it added the signature of the magic inside of me to this world. That is a gift in its own right.



Thanks for looking. Its been an intense, bumpy ride but I'm somehow still moving forward. I hope you all are, too.
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NEW SAMHAIN MOON STORE!

Hey everyone!

I’ve made the announcement just about everywhere else except here. I’ve decided to take my services a little further than just offering them here, so I’ve opened up my very own Etsy shop! There are so many services I have queued to offer to you, but while we get started, I’m offering the core services for now.

For 14 years now I have been a dedicated cartomancer; also learning divination practices such as tarot, playing cards, lenormand, geomancy, tea and coffee readings, and numerology based off what your life path is and what you’re working on in the current year. I practice working with spirit and offer spirit readings, at times also hosting séances amongst my friends for messages from beyond of any kind.

I’ve been offering paid readings since 2010, and also blogging here since then. In 2011 I started offering paid readings through Skype on the blog. Those will remain available to my clients. I plan on updating that section very soon, though. Now I’ve finally taken a step towards expanding my career and practice, and I hope you will all join and support me in this process.

Anyhow, to commemorate the start of my new journey, I’m offering a 50% discount on the premium readings to give you all a chance to sample them if you so wish. 50OFF is the code. It’s valid until mid August on all readings over $50.

My shop is located at: https://www.etsy.com/shop/SamhainMoon

I hope to see you there. Please share this post with your friends if you wouldn’t mind.


AVAILABLE READINGS:
ONE CARD READING
The Moment of Truth!
This reading is going to be to the point. No outside influences, just what you ask me for. Like a bullet! I will be pulling one complimentary oracle card or playing card to give you additional answer on the question. To tie it all in for you!
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THREE CARD READING
What I like about this reading is that it can be tailored to you and your needs. If you need to know the influences of the situation and where things are likely to go for you, this is a great reading.

Ask me one question about your life, detailing what it is specifically that you want to know. Focus the question on your need, and in one aspect of your life. Let the cards do the rest, and wait for my thorough interpretation! Please include your first name. If you are asking about somebody else, include their first name also.
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TAROT READING
This reading will include from 13 to 21 cards, or maybe more. It is DETAILED!

Ask me one question about your life, detailing what it is specifically that you want to know. Focus the question on your need, and in one aspect of your life. Let the cards do the rest, and wait for my thorough interpretation! Please include your first name. If you are asking about somebody else, include their first name also.
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VIDEO TAROT READING

This reading will include from 13 to 21 cards, or maybe more. It is DETAILED, and the same as the Tarot Reading by Leelahel listing. The only difference is that I will conduct your reading live on camera and post it on my channel. You will be able to watch this video and pick up all the nuances in my voice as many times as you like!

For this reading, all you need to do is send me your first name in. Ask me one question about your life, detailing what it is specifically that you want to know. Focus the question on your need, and in one aspect of your life. Let the cards do the rest, and wait for my thorough interpretation!
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PLAYING CARDS + GEOMANCY READING
Playing cards have always fascinated me as a child. I have been taking Ana Cortez's certification course, and since then I have found this method incredibly to the point. What you get is a week by week projection up to a month and a full analysis as to where you are in terms of mind, body and spirit. It works best with a specific question geared towards your subject of interest.

Using playing cards and geomancy, I will compose a personal reading based off your needs. You will be receiving a PDF detailing everything.

This is a 4 cards reading. It will include three geomantic figures drawn and interpreted as well. The relation of the geomancy to your life will leave you in awe! I thoroughly enjoy and recommend this method of divination. My clients always love it!
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ADVICE FROM YOUR IDOLS
Unlock the secrets of the once living.

Is your idol dead? Let’s channel some advice from them to you, using alternate methods of divination. Must be an actual person that lived and died. No fictional characters.

This reading will be without cards. I need the name of your idol, your favorite photo of them as well as what you would like to ask them or know about them. Please be specific, as I'm likely to get better results if my interaction with them has a sense of direction.

Fun fact: This reading started with Bela Lugosi and Walt Disney.
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MESSAGES FROM BEYOND
Intuitive messages from spirit, no tarot cards used. Works best if geared towards a specific person in your life that passed away, or can also be a spirit guide. No fictional characters.

Has someone passed away and left you with the feeling that they still had something to say? Do you miss someone that has passed into another life? If you would like to hear about somebody no longer with us? I recommend asking for this type of reading. These types of readings have had excellent results with my clients, as well as in my personal ventures. It is a lot like channeling messages. It’s a good way to figure out the answer to any questions you have pending.

For this reading, please provide me with the name of the person you want to get in contact with. You may provide as much or as little as you want. Photos help me immensely to connect.
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Get 50% off on readings over $50 with the code 50OFF until mid August. Don’t miss it!


VIDEO READING RAFFLE
This listing is a $1.11 cost for an entry into a monthly raffle, starting in August and produced in September. So on every month.

If only one person participates each month, that person will be an automatic winner for the raffle. Raffle winners will have their questions answered in my Youtube channel.

You can request any reading from my shop, so long as it is not a spirit reading. Advice from Your Idols and Messages from Beyond will not apply. Ask me anything that you want!

If more than one person participates in the raffle, I will do a name drawing at the end of the month to declare the winner. I may also include the name drawing in the video to ensure that the results are fair every time. This is just now starting, so please feel free to engage me with your ideas.
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I hope to be able to read for you soon!

Your friend,
Leelah
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