CLOAK & DAGGER 01/08/2019



Last Tuesday I took my boyfriend to my favorite club and introduced him to all my Nightside friends. He even got to meet my dear friend Father Sebastiaan. I was overcome with an ecstatic sense of euphoria the entire night, hugging everybody for the first time in the new calendar year and feeling proud of the company on my arm. Its these moments I live for, and I want to commemorate the love of the night posting our photobooth portraits.

We had an amazing time. I'm so happy I can share the magic of my Cloak & Dagger community with somebody outside of it. I'm also very happy we have a safe space to express ourselves and to explore the highlights that can be found hiding in very dimly candlelit tables in the darkness.

I felt really lucky to enjoy the company of my beloved in my most favorite club. Holding his hand in the darkness validated many of the struggles we've overcome, just to earn us a moment for us like this one. He makes my heart sing so loud.



Really enjoying the momentum we got into at the start of 2019. I wish for us all to be successful in progressing towards the kind of people we want to end up turning into. On my end I'm trying to prioritize what really matters in hobbies, priorities and especially connections to other people.

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EPIC TAROT



Today I am going to review Riccardo Minetti and Paolo Martinello's Epic Tarot by Lo Scarabeo.

This is a strong fantasy deck that includes mythical creatures and imaginative worlds to explore or interact with. Some of the sights are imbued with fantastical imagination and will inspire you to look past traditional systems of reading the tarot cards. Fantasy lends itself to narrative almost seamlessly. I love the fact you have a range of small creatures going all the way to colossal golems. I like how interactions between all the sentient beings in the cards can correlate with our own personal paths and struggles.

I am a huge endorser of feeding the imagination and keeping a logical foundation throughout. It is through dreaming that we allow ourselves to formulate plans that are uplifting and keep us purposeful. Being lit with inspiration will keep us working harder towards achieving what we hope will one day come to pass.

The colors are mostly shady, with some pastel contrasts to build dreamy layers in the illustrations. This deck is best approached with an imaginative, open mind and a warm heart.

The illustration quality is really nice. Despite the mood of the illustrations being different, this deck definitely reminds me a lot of the Universal Fantasy Tarot, which I loved since I first laid eyes on it. 

The Epic Tarot comes in a standard Lo Scarabeo box, and the card format is very comfortable to use since the cards and card stock are thin. I find this deck format very easy to shuffle and fan out. The cards have fully reversible backs and attractive framing borders, which change color according to the suit. There are no titles to identify the cards, just number and suits or illustrated courts.






I need to note in this review that the court cards are very confusing to read. Pages, Knights, Queens and Kings have been changed to Unicorns, Griffins, Phoenixes and Dragons. I can’t tell which is which intuitively and need to check the booklet to figure out what they are. I can especially not tell what is a Griffin or Dragon. If you have a white gel pen or light metallic marker you can write on them. I, myself plan to write down what is what in a post-it to keep close when doing my readings. I like the way these cards look and don’t intend to write on them. Because of this change in the court cards I wouldn’t recommend this deck for beginners. If you want to learn the tarot tradition you can still pick from a variety of other beautiful decks. But I think everybody is entitled to start their tarot journey as they see fit, though. So if this is the deck for you, full speed ahead! You’ll figure out what the courts are meant to represent eventually.



I have been using this deck for a few months now and I find it very easy to get adjusted to. You will appreciate the change in scenery and characters because it will allow you to take what is in front of you and weave the story according to the nuances of your situation. For this reason I’d recommend this deck for artists and writers especially. Keep the craft alive!

If the upcoming interview is any proof, this deck is still able to deliver sound advice that feels custom tailored to your situation. All you will need is the time to decode the message, and to keep things moving in forward motion.





What is your most important characteristic?
The Empress. Holding space for yourself and others can become a responsibility you take on lovingly. I intuit this means the advice you derive from readings will sound like advice you get from a knowledgeable parent that has shared the same experience. This means that when you tune into the mindset of looking into your life, you should have patience with yourself and be accepting of the circumstances. Know that you hold your own space and can make just about any experience manageable so long as you still have some influence over it.

What are your strengths as a tarot deck?
Emperor. Persuasive strength that comes lacking in intimidation. You can be sure answers will be direct. It feels like the answers will seem apparent at first glance once you’ve gotten settled in and adjusted to reading with this deck.

What are your limits?
Nine of Swords. If you are anxious or outside yourself, your focus on deriving intuitive messages will dwindle. It is possible your anxiety towards needing to know will stress you out. Because of this I’d advise taking a few deep breaths, getting grounded back in your space and emotionally detaching from anything you are about to look into so you can be fair. Avoid getting overwhelmed by pacing yourself.



What are you here to teach me?
Four of Cups. If you are getting discouraged by circumstances you are in you didn’t see coming, don’t pressure yourself further. Instead of being bitter, huffing and puffing, try instead to give yourself time with your mind off the issue. Distract yourself, rest, do something that matters to you. The time will come when it is important that you do something again. Until then, take it easy.

How can I best learn to collaborate with you?
Judgment. Learn to answer calls for action. Be prepared before it is time to act. You can achieve this by planning. You can achieve this as you develop foresight. If it is not something you were born with then trust it’s just a matter of time until things start making more sense. The difference is knowing when you are called to act, and learning to identify when to hold back and be patient still.

What is the potential outcome of our working relationship?
Six of Swords. Taking a risk can feel like throwing it all to the wind. You don’t get lost if you know where you want to go, because you set the intention. If you are uncertain about your future, you can use this deck to figure out where you’ll be going next. If you trust intuition you should find the path becomes clear the further into it you venture.



Which card do you want to show off?
Five of Swords. Often the most difficult times in our lives are the ones that encourage us to push forward. Being faced with the most dire of circumstances can force us to reinvent ourselves and to find a way. All we need to do is believe in ourselves. This is really eerily optimistic for this kind of card. Even when faced with tasks that overwhelm us, we can use the power of thought to create new solutions.

How do you see me?
The Lovers. Immersed in an intimate bonding experience. It takes being open and vulnerable to consecrate the art of connecting to others. I curate that experience, and live it in example.

How do you see yourself?
Three of Coins. A deck that will work with you, for you through the toughest circumstances. There will be as many options present as you allow yourself to see.



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I really like this deck and feel it is often overlooked. I've had mind to rotate it into my work table to use with others, but haven't done so because some treats you just want to reserve for yourself. I get so much enjoyment out of using it that I don't want to exploit its magic treating it like a workhorse.

It is worth checking out! Let me know what you think of it if you've interacted with it.
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PROMISE RINGS


After careful consideration and acknowledgement of how I felt I decided to give my lover a promise ring, to repeat the decision we took to commit to one another one year ago. This blossoming relationship has brought us both intimate moments of joy and childlike enthusiasm for adventure. At the close of the year I summed up the highlights to our year and found we had done a ton and taken an overwhelming amount of photos, despite many instances going undocumented. Those tender moments live on in memory only.

It is with great joy that I am writing today to document something very special happening. I don’t get the privilege of participating in life-altering rituals every day. This instance was a real treat for me, as I’ve never been graced with the honor of asking somebody to formally commit to me.

As our relationship matures we have noticed the nuanced changes in our own personalities. Each one of us has been influenced slightly and started to change according to the union. It fills you with love when you grow together.



Ever since I slipped that ring on Chris’ finger I feel proud about it. I want to shout it from the rooftops. It’s a good feeling to have more than enough, and to be steadily crafting the sacred space of home in the heart of the person you love.

We should all hope to be so lucky as to find somebody who accepts us with all our flaws and sticks by our side with reaffirming faith in that things will work out for the best.



Rachel Nash, the creatrix who crafted these rings is a true artisan. I went crazy for her designs as soon as I saw them. She patiently ushered me through the process and had many ideas to accommodate my custom requests. Please endorse her skills!

"Let’s cherish our lives together and take nothing for granted."


Rings by Rachel Nash of Upscale Hare.
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THE LIFE OF A SOOTHSAYER




I have been telling fortunes for more than half of my life. I picked the cards up at a very early age, at least four years after I had started using talking boards and automatic writing or drawing. It was a natural process for me; I felt the call somehow and didn’t know how to answer back but I staid the course. I learned through observation and the sense of feeling. Nobody taught me what I know. It took 11 years before I found my mentor and worked towards my certification. Now I stand over almost 19 years of divination and fortune-telling and I am astounded at how quickly time has passed, and at how much experience I've amassed.

The way you interact with the cards changes as you gain more experience. I used to have a set meaning system I’d refer to and recite depending on the context of the reading. I used to avoid reversals because I felt it would mess with the balance of all the archetypes.

Now I attribute meaning based off what is surrounding the card and what the symbols in the tableau point out to me. I read reversed meanings if the cards around the one I am looking at indicate it should be. I can see peoples’ life patterns and gloss them down into situational reasons for concern. Then I reverse it by offering advice or laying the options they have out on the table. It’s an electric process, certainly one I enjoy thoroughly.

The life of a soothsayer comes with many challenges. People who are your “friend” encourage you to read for free and drain you. You’ll often pick up on more than you want to when you are introduced to new people. People become case studies rather than friends you want to make. You have this quiet understanding about who they are because your intuition tells you so, but you can’t quite put into words how it is you know so much about them. You just know and you accept, much like the High Priestess does.



There are many joys that come along with the practice of divination. You connect with people more easily, and revel in the moments you feel in tune with them. A strong connection can light your spirit with inspiration and with motivation for your future. You feel good about the notion you can help someone sort through their options to forge a better path to their own future.

At the end of the day, the gift is heavy from the responsibility you shoulder. Vulnerable people will believe what you tell them, and you need to be fully concentrated to really take in their life. Helping others becomes a challenge if you have to compartmentalize your mind with your own problems you are trying to solve and their own. One does not relate to the other, so often times you will find that as a reader you need to tune out of your mundane life so you can be a present, open channel for your querent. Therein lies the sacrifice.

The life of a spiritual worker is one of self-sacrifice and devotion to others. It teaches us to walk a silent path where we carry and protect secrets; ours and those of others. Now I understand why the Hierophant jealously guards those two keys. There are entire vaults of secret information not privy to the eyes of those who don’t understand. You need to earn you right to see and understand those secrets.



Wherever you are at in your journey, I hope you found your own experiences identified in this journal post. May your intuition lead you to gain new insights with which to fuel your fire.
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THE COTTAGE IN THE CANYON




Today I want to talk about personal matters in my online diary. I’ve enjoyed the warm respite of a blossoming relationship and while I am adjusting into what my future is turning into, its been productive to document privately.

I just got back from a romantic retreat in the Topanga Canyon. My beloved boyfriend Chris and I drove up the mountain path and staid just shy of 16 minutes from Santa Monica Pier, but the sights and the silence were perfect for two city folk looking to get away for a while. We had a beautiful cottage house not far from the summit of the mountain with hiking trails, silence, rain, layers and layers of blankets and pillows, pillow talk, and ghost talk.

The first night we had wine over dinner, then we spent some time together. After that we returned to the cottage, bundled up and listened to the rain. We heard a band of coyotes howling and fronting with a siren. It was otherwise dead quiet. We cozied up and opened our hearts up to one another. It was a very moving experience and one of my favorite moments in all of 2018. Toward the end of the night I got to spend time with my thoughts, opening my eyes to new epiphanies that sunk in.



We enjoyed some hiking through trails, finding a memorial along the way and coyote paw prints. Later on as we approached the summit we spotted a coyote and admired it as we came closer. It disappeared into a precipice with expert stealth. Once we reached the summit we enjoyed the clean air and looked out over the city. It was calming to share that experience with my best friend.

During our stay we got to enjoy a romantic dinner at the Inn of the Seventh Ray. Everything about this outing was perfect. As you descent the stairs you have nothing but trees and fairy lights surrounding you. There is a glass chandelier reflecting the light shards all throughout the courtyard, and a room with windows to the lights and a fireplace. I thoroughly enjoyed connecting with Chris over some delicious Moscato, enjoying the sights and savoring dinner made for us from scratch. After dinner we cozied up on the couch together, sharing a blanket and enjoying one another’s company. I got some time in reflecting and writing about my recent experiences in my journal. I fell asleep in the perfect silence with a smile.





The town happened to be scattered all throughout the mountain, which prompted us to go on a fruitless excursion to get decent brunch on Thanksgiving day. The mornings rolled around the mountain sweetly, rewarding us with the most crisp breezes and cool weather.

We left that cottage house feeling fresh and sparky, in good cheer and with renovated affections. During our stay we discussed our relationship at length and came out of this experience with clarity and personal assurance.

There was a lot to be celebrated on this trip. We were commemorating our first year knowing each other, celebrating Thanksgiving and rewarding ourselves with a rare vacation. We anticipate the arrival of our custom promise rings so that with every day wear we'll cherish our lives together and take nothing for granted.



The light rays of romance can permeate through any healing spirit and resurrect it. I am proof of that. Just look at how I glow with my feverish love for him. I am so lucky.
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