DEPECHE MODE GLOBAL SPIRIT TOUR



We need to interrupt the regular schedule to talk about a mind-altering experience I just had last night. I know we haven’t even talked about Marrakech yet, but you guys need to hear this now.

Last night Depeche Mode played the Global Spirit Tour at the Hollywood Bowl. The event started at 7:30P.M., but we arrived at 8:30P.M. And missed out on Warpaint's set, Just getting there was a mission, the street was jam packed with traffic and the place is so big that it looked like a giant ant farm. It was overflowing with hustle, bustle and street food. Being an empath and being pelted with his much coming at you from all sides gives you a sense of euphoria as the excitement mounts. Energy sensitive people were likely extremely overwhelmed and hyper. I certainly was!

I was delighted with our seats, and the company was excellent. We felt the entire set deeply within our hearts and souls. There was a cathartic release of tears and old emotions thrown back out into the world, and with the space that it created I felt myself filling up with love. An overwhelming amount of joy, gratitude and love flooded me. I haven’t felt this alive in years!

It was incredibly easy to get lost in the music. I wish I could recreate the atmosphere and mindset for you in words, but it's very difficult. You feel the excitement in waves, and the more that people cheer the more you feel your body will spontaneously combust. The weather was divine, it wasn't humid or hot like it has been the past few days. Everybody was having fun in an extremely safe environment. There were many cop cars there at the ready in case an attack broke out. I felt completely liberated and able to express myself. There's no price on that.





The setlist was incredible! I think I even enjoyed it more than the ’13 Delta Machine Tour and Soulsavers.

GLOBAL SPIRIT TOUR SETLIST
♡ Revolution (Beatles song)
♡ Cover Me
♡ Going Backwards
♡ It’s No Good (Tour Debut)
♡ Barrel of a Gun
♡ A Pain That I’m Used To (Jacques Lu Cont Rmx)
♡ Corrupt
♡ In Your Room (đŸ”„đŸ”„đŸ”„ Can you say sizzling?)
♡ World In My Eyes
♡ Cover Me
♡ Insight
♡ Home
♡ Poison Heart
♡ Where’s the Revolution
♡ Wrong
♡ Everything Counts
♡ Stripped
♡ Enjoy the Silence
♡ Never Let Me Down Again

ENCORE:
♡ Shake the Disease
♡ Walking in My Shoes
♡ Black Celebration
♡ I Feel You
♡ Personal Jesus

Insane, right??



After the show, we scrambled. I didn’t get to see my Cloak squad even though they were present. The insanity of the crowds was overwhelming, and luckily we didn't get stuck. Instead, we walked to Boardner’s for Blue Mondays. The night took a turn for the wild, we partied so hard. I ran into Marco, which I met recently at the last Ruin. Christopher was also there, so we had a great dance troupe. All smiles!

After the club, Silvia and I went to grab a bite to eat. We opened up to each other about our secrets and laughed plenty. With open hearts it is easier to see into the soul of the people you are facing. We were glowing, winding down a successful outing with intense love overflowing. Despite all of the insanity of the past few years, life is good. We had the best time!

Now I’ve got memories to last me through the day. Tonight is Diplo's guest dj set at Cloak and Dagger. The Cloak squad gives me so much life! Ever since I met them earlier this year, these people have changed my life. We are going to dance the night away in our church like sanctuary. There will be sonic romance. There will be a sickening amount of photo booth pictures taken and the dancing will burn us clean again. Yes!



I love Los Angeles. I love the intensity of the life I am living. I love that you are all supporting me after such a hard time and filling my heart with some much-needed love. I’ve been starving for too long. Thank you!

My birthday is this Sunday. I promise I will write about the Marrakech trip soon!
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IRMA & MARIA




I’m sure you’ve heard by now, but my motherland has just been violated by two back to back superstorms, Irma and MarĂ­a. We just narrowly avoided getting combed through by JosĂ©.

Being an expatriate watching it all happen from the outside is painful. When Irma hit, Mom was back there and I was rendered useless for the entire day. I would obsessively refresh through the hurricane trackers and google news. Work wasn’t happening, and neither was my peace of mind. I wasn’t at peace the whole time we were incommunicado. The stress of wanting to be there to accompany my family through the monster storm was overwhelming and honestly rather crippling.

As if by a cruel twist of fate, she gathered her things and left with me on vacation. The trip to Marrakech was really long, but it gave us time to catch up on the details of what had just happened. As we were on our second day in Marrakech and scouting the new city, we ended up sitting at a Starbucks having anxiety attacks. Hurricane MarĂ­a was combing through Puerto Rico and we had no clue what would become of the house I grew up in. Since we were not expecting the storm before the vacation, the house was left with no protection. We felt a cold shower of fear drape all around us.

The next few days were one painful assault after the other. As it turns out, MarĂ­a completely devastated my island. We find ourselves in a state of emergency as a declared disaster zone, and we are now at the mercy of the rest of the world to send in supplies and donations to help us out. Our beautiful trees and palm trees have been stripped of their leaves or torn out of their resting places, light posts have also fallen and caused much damage. I fear for our local green parrots, highlight of my mornings and afternoons, 90 of which were rescued.

We are estimated to be left without power or water for 6-7 months. 

Life after a hurricane is no easy feat. I worry about everybody I've ever known, for their safety from desperate burglars forcing their needs to be prioritized at gunpoint. Hospitals have been robbed of their gasoline. Pitbull enlists his personal asset to fly cancer patients out of the country while the President stumbles over his ability to aid the American citizens in dire need. Food spoils and people face the risk of starvation. What a nightmare. My people are in need. Everyone faces mortal peril. My heart weeps for my motherland.




Thank you to all those of you extending your warmth, expressing your concern and reaching out to help directly. I can't begin to express how much it means to me!
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CONFESS...




What a whirlwind! I disappeared for a few months to get my circumstances in order, and to heal from a very intense break up. The relationship itself was one that left a huge impacting hole in my life, and getting over the rut has been a bit of a struggle for me. There was so much collateral damage, and since then I've had some high highs and low lows. But it feels so good to have gotten out of it and to be experiencing something new.

In talking to others about their life experiences, I have found synchronicity. A lot of the people I am currently bonding with have just gotten out of a rough period in their lives. They feel more their own selves than they have in years, and I strongly resonate with this because this is exactly how I have been feeling. Coming out of a rough period and finding support is a grounding and very humbling experience. It's hard to have thorns when you are cradled by an abundance of love. And I certainly have received generous amounts of love lately!

Opening your eyes to the world and recognizing yourself to be a new person is a riveting change. It shakes up your core. If you are going through a change like this also I invite you to my comments section. Please tell me about your recent challenges, share your ups and downs with me. Believe it or not I am very interested in getting to know my readers more, and I want to be emphatic in that your stories will be heard, considered and prayed for.

Its interesting to watch this space evolve along with me. I like it! And I feel very grateful to all the support I have received, it has given me the momentum that I need to keep going. Once you get the spring back in your step and your smiles start to widen, you feel this nurturing certainty that everything will be okay. The color starts coming back into your life and you feel stronger by the hour, circumstances allowing.





















This past month has been spent having the wildest of adventures. My spirit has been renewed, and I once more feel zest for life. I am home again and this chapter of my life feels so different from the previous ones. The adventures I am having are in a class all of their own. I could not be more excited!
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THE GOOD TAROT




If I am not mistaken, this deck is actually Colette Baron-Reid's first tarot deck. Colette has made a name for herself with some truly interesting oracle decks that she has put out. I, myself have the Wisdom of the Hidden Realms Oracle as of a few years ago. And I've had my eye on the Wisdom of Avalon Oracle, which I hope will someday make its way into my collection. Someday!

Reading reviews online has been a mixed bag. A lot of people are not into this deck for the same reason I wasn't that into it. It doesn't really work as a tarot deck, but it does still have imagery that your intuition can connect with on an emotional level. I say its best not to point fingers and to instead let the cards speak for themselves. Let's face it, while some of us may not necessarily be crazy about the way that this deck reads, for somebody else it could be an ice breaker. There will likely be somebody out there who has wanted to make the jump from oracle to tarot and has struggled to make the transition. Well, I think this deck can bridge the gap for them as a transitional tool. But once there is comfort with these cards, I definitely recommend adopting a Rider-Waite Smith, Thoth or Marseille tradition deck to continue the journey down the tarot path. Oracle decks and tarot don't work the same way, no matter which reader glamours the craft well enough to make it seem like the same thing. Don't be fooled!

The illustrations of this deck are so gorgeous. Some of them look like stills from really fantastical dreams. I actually love the soft, grungy collage feeling that they have. I just had to get it in the hopes that it would be a great deck for daily card draws, to wet the imagination on days where starting seems like a tedious task. The cards are oracle size and the entire deck in a stack is pretty bulky, but I like the card stock. It will hold up to use over time, and likely destroy your hands in the process. It’s sturdy!

The card backs are gorgeous. This deck looks a lot like a fairy tale storybook from olden times, worn and tattered after years of keeping people entertained. Stories take us to places of fantasy and moral teachings. In a lot of ways this deck is a storybook that changes its order again and again to regale you with endless stories. Oh, the intrigue! Your life unfolds before your eyes in sweet, tender storytelling. I actually find that rather endearing.

I really wanted to love this deck more. It’s hard to when the imagery is so beautiful but you can’t really find the substance that you need in it. I couldn’t talk to a client about why their relationship didn’t work out when I don’t even see any indicatives of hard times in the cards. It’s all set in this detached dream realm where everything and everyone is picture perfect.




This is definitely an art deck. I recommend to use it as an oracle. It’s really hard for me to see these cards as a tarot deck. They are stripped of any hermeticism, and read mostly as emotional oracle cards. It’s really hard to fit them into a system that makes sense when they replace very important symbols with watered down and non-threatening images. Not only are these images non-threatening, though, they're also very detached from us. I can't quite put my finger on it, I just know it's not working for me yet.

There is nothing really deep about this deck. It takes away all the pain and the hardships from the tarot and instead fills in that void with sugarcoated fluff. I think the deck is very beautiful but at least for me it is unusable for work. I need to be able to tell people why their relationships aren't working out, why their business is unable to sustain itself, why they're not going to get that house they have been so ardently working to get... if that's the case. While readers deal out glowing news, often times readers also face the responsibility of telling a client why their dream is about to flop. Readers also need to be able to offer options or next steps, and I'm just not seeing that flow with these cards.

Due to the inconvenient card size and the style of the cards, I don’t see myself using this deck as a workhorse copy. I do, however, see myself pulling this out if ever I find myself writing fantasy or if I need to read for somebody who is afraid of the tarot. Some of us need the darkness present in everyday life to be able to read, simply because life itself is a balance of darkness and light. When you understand that and live under that principle, you can't embrace one extreme over the other and still be able to give grounded advice.




What is your most important characteristic?
Sun. Radiating warmth and joy unto all. An uncharacteristic sense of wellbeing is projected out to bring even more positivity to the lives of those seeking advice. A light that when cast so vigorously over events will take out shadow aspects out of sight.

The light of self-empowerment burns gold and blinding.

What are your strengths as a tarot deck?
Knight of Wands. The crown of candles drew my eyes in right away. It is a deck meant to prompt personal realizations, to strengthen our own confidence. I see the glow in the face of the Knight as one that comes from looking directly at the Sun, even though in this spread she has her back to the Sun. Instead she looks to the limitations being worked on. This Knight does not appreciate limitations or responsibilities if they slow her goal from springing into being.

What are your limits?
Eight of Coins. Some of the possibilities growing in your life stretch past your limits, and are therefore outside your control. What will help you understand your possibilities is to also understand just how much is in your control. Once you are in the know, you can proceed to do what is needed to get the desired results. Working around your limits is definitely an act of patience.



What are you here to teach me?
Ace of Cups. I am here to teach you to be okay with your vulnerability, to learn to express your feelings in awkward times and to remind you that the way that you feel is absolutely valid. Fantasy themes don’t necessarily eliminate the possibility of what you feel being very real, and being able to draw connections between the fantastic and the real elements just the same.

How can I best learn to collaborate with you?
Nine of Swords. Accept the circumstances. Don’t get overwhelmed by the sources of stress. Instead, seek to free yourself from them. Allow the glow coming from within to be your guiding light in the darkness. Travel swiftly, light, fast, and invisible. Ask for help from your guides knowing that you intuition will take you where you need to go.

What is the potential outcome of our working relationship?
Six of Wands. The feeling of overcoming all obstacles to move forward in the world brings satisfaction. There are times of celebration ahead for having braved the rough and not given up. There are special medals for all those of those overcoming their obstacles and besting themselves. It all starts with you.



Which card do you want to show off?
The World. Proper calibration of energies can help you feel like everything is falling into place. Everything as it connects to the woven fabric of life, as it stretches out into bodies of much larger scale. It's all connected somehow.

See, here’s my problem with this deck. A literal illustration of The World, The Moon and The Sun all in one card. The concept of The World is stripped of all its symbols, the victory wreath, the naked woman. All we are left with is the planet.

How do you see me?
The Star. Vulnerable, out in the open. Transparent. People see through you the same way you see through them. Learning to express and accept emotions. Tears aplenty. With opening up and being vulnerable comes sharing the darker parts of yourself that others won't understand or will somehow judge.

How do you see yourself?
Page of Cups. A young or youthful spirit that is sensitive and intuitive. A reflection of your younger self, perhaps before you went through the transformation you are just now recovering from. There is emotional respite here if you seek it with an open mind an heart.



All in all, not a contender for my go-to selections. While this deck is certainly beautiful to look at, I was disappointed by the childproof bumpers put on the edges of the card. Life isn’t just rainbows and purple flowers.

Maybe next time, Colette Baron-Reid.
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